Dislike myself on this time ~

I really not wish to blog my Emo here
but really make me gonna bust !!
ya, i m really Emo this time~
someone can Help me ?
i really tired with everything

really not easy to get mature
i thought i will be alright with everything
actually just get hurt inside my heart

i know , you got your own reason
need my understanding
but i really cant ignore my own feeling

that day , my friend said, need get the feeling back
but that is guy job
but i feel that
i need to contribute too
but just one side contribute
what for ?
only get the cold words and tired
lastly , i really cold with everything now

this time , i really lost
this not me
this not my life i should be
this time, i really dislike myself